Simply Authentic

To Jinseo

Jinseo.
Kim Jinseo.
I miss you.
You suck for disappearing. Honestly too many things have been happening throughout the year and it’s been too long. I miss you I miss you I miss you but you probably won’t come back even though I want you back.
Frankly it sucks that you’re not here. We have the memories and you know it. Lead me. The drama. The aches and angers of not seeing each other. Twitter. The cute messages.
E v e r y t h i n g.
You were my best friend. I loved you a lot. You made me happy. I still love you but the feelings are different. So many of us miss you. We’re busy but we made time for you. You’re special.

Anonymous asked: SPLAT* you just got snowballed! So, WELCOME TO THE SNOWBALL FIGHT OF 2012!!!! (I guess 2013 now lol) Ok, here's how it works. you say three to five random facts about yourself, then you go Anonymous and snowball your five favorite blogs. If you get snowballed again then you CANNOT snowball any blogs you snowballed before, except if you're out of blogs to snowball. Have fun! Hugs and butterfly kisses <3

WAIT WHO ARE YOU ANONYMOUS YOU REMIND ME OF SOMEONE 
1. I fell in love with a complete dork in the late summer of 2012. <3
2. My hair is thick, jet black and straight. You can’t get anymore Asian than that.
3. I love to sing and dance! I’m just shy about dancing in front of family and classmates orz
4. I’ve had my tumblr since january of 2011, so it’s been two years already hehe c:
5. At first I thought Exo was a total group of kiss-asses. I first I didn’t like them, especially Kai. I thought he was a total show-off. (I didn’t even learn their names through all the teasers, I leaned their names through my timeline here and on twitter orz) And then I fell in love with him and then I started liking his band members and asdkhkgjhasd It’s a love-hate relationship now LOL. 

hugs and butterfly kisses to you too sweetie, xoxo <3 

Anonymous asked: Awweh! It would have been nice to ask him how he thinks of you to hear the sweet things he has to say hehe (: ♥

I know, it would have been nice! I really want to hear his opinion of me. <3

Anonymous asked: My last question is how did you meet?

How did he and I meet?
The internetz. Hehe. I met him through tumblr. 

I was just going about my daily routine over the summer. I had nothing to do, because the house was cleaned, I’m too young to work, and I had no money to go out; I was basically a couch potato.
 So, to help my boredom, I went on tumblr, following new people from here and there. some of them weren’t kpop fans, but the rest were, and he ended up being one of them. 
He had a selca on his tumblr, and I thought, “Oh, well he’s adorable. He has a nice blog,” so I followed him.

A few days after or so, he followed me back (What’s weird is that he told me he rarely follows anyone back), and I said, “Thanks for the follow-back, I appreciate it!”
And from there, we started talking to each other nonstop. And throughout the weeks, I just ended up developing feelings for him.  

I didn’t even think it was possible at first, and like I said, I had many doubts. Sometimes I still doubt and over-think, but I gotta deal with it. 
Apparently, he also developed feelings for me too, especially throughout the weeks that we have been talking.  He told me that he was never shy around anyone until he met me. And I remember, because that day was the most amazing day of my life. 

As weird as it sounds, we started confessing to each outher because as we talked on Facebook, he started to type in lyrics to A-Pink’s “It Girl,” and just changed it to lyrics of a boy’s perspective.

"I wanna be that boy that can be with you forever. So tell me, will you be my girlfriend?" 
I thought he was serious, so I said, “Yes! <3”

"What?"
"Uh."

I thought he was being totally serious but he was just singing. I  didn’t want to be talking to him because I was really awkward. Don’t misunderstand, because the situation was weird. I thought it was pretty embarrassing too. 

But hey, I guess that way, by my weird, direct answers, we ended up dating. The rest is history! <3  

Anonymous asked: Just a shy follower. (: Does he have a tumblr?

I wish he still had one. He deleted it :/

And hey, why so shy? Let me hug youuuuuu <3 
You’re such a lovely follower. 

Anonymous asked: "Even with all the negatives, there are still positives, and those are the big things." You're very sweet, and from this perspective, you are very lucky, and so is your bf. (:

I’m just wondering, but may I know who the anon is? (:

Thank you! I’m just stating my personal opinion, really. But I try to make it as non-offensive as possible! Hehe.

Anonymous asked: Ouuh. Why can't you tell us who he is? Is he famous?

Nah, not famous at all.

He acts like it though. Not in a snobby way, but in a cute way. 

Like if I told him, “Good job on your exam scores!” He’d go, ” *flips hair*

Anonymous asked: How do you survive a long distance relationship? Is it hard?

How do I survive? I just do. Simply living on from the fact that you know someone out there is able to love you like that seems to be enough. 

Hard? It’s not that hard unless you make it out to be. To be honest, I had doubts about the relationship, and I never really bothered about doing anything. 

Over-thinking is shit. Too much of it starts killing you from the inside out. Sometimes, when I’m worried about how he’s doing, whether he’s cheating on me, or whether he has been lying to me, that really… pulls on my feelings, and I can’t do anything about it. Thoughts like those spread like wildfire. And it sucks. 

But even if it’s not true, unless you don’t base the relationship on trust and loyalty, the whole relationship would be the eptiome of useless. 
 
Even with all the negatives, there are still positives, and those are the big things. They matter the most. The love you have for each other, or the small little conversations with “stupid pick-up lines,” or “retellings of yesterday’s news” really matter. Those small moments are the ones to be cherished, like the love separated by seas and lands and basically distance. 

I feel like I’m writing a book. I find loves like this to be the most precious, second to the love that God has for us. But that’s my opinion. What’s your’s?

Anonymous asked: Who is your bf? (PS nice smile)

A boy— a man. A little bit in between.

He is… a cutie. (How do I really explain this?) 
He’s a sweetie. One that has many moods. He laughs over the big things and looks over the small things. He’s sensitive, sometimes taking things seriously. And maybe somehow, when I    didn’t expect it, I fell in love with this kid. I can’t tell you who he is exactly, but maybe it’s just because his whole character is lovable. 

And thank you! I appreciate it. Were you being honest? Haha.

Anonymous asked: Your love for your boy sounds amazing ~

Really? Do you like it? Ohohohoho. I try (;